Moments in Life

Moments in Life

I have been thinking a lot lately

about the moments that we have in life.

These past couple weeks 

have been hard for me.

I have been overwhelmed with

trying to work 20 hours a week,

go to school with 14 credits and all it brings,

and being pregnant.

Being pregnant is hard work.

Since I have been having an amazing pregnancy,

I have just assumed I could do everything

I did before I got pregnant.

Well, I'm here to tell you I cannot.

I'm not admitting defeat, 

but I admit I cannot do it all.

It's something that is really hard to come to terms with

for me.

I want to have time to just sit around 

and watch movies while I feel our little girl kick.

I want to have time to research brands

of car seats and strollers that are safe and reliable.

I want to start cleaning and preparing her room.

I want to OOO and AWW over cute girl things all day.

I want to be graduated from school already.

I want to have no stress.

Not only do I want to have more time

to prepare for our little girl,

but I find myself wanting more material things.

Such as:

I want to be living in a house already.

I want to have more money to buy our girl

the biggest and best things.

I want to be able to decorate 

with and how I want to.

I want a huge book and movie collection

for her.

I want a second car.

All of these things

are WANTS.

I got really low and stressed out,

I had to calm down and take a few moments for me.

As I sat down,

I looked at everything that was around me.

I was sitting in a beautiful apartment

that we are so blessed to have what we do.

I have the most amazing husband

who is more than I could have ever asked for.

I have a a cute little baby bump

with our daughter inside moving around.

I am so blessed to be able to go to school

and have a pile of books staring at me.

I'm studying to become a teacher!

I have a reliable car that works great.

I have all the material things I need,

and I'm even blessed to have some of my wants.


What am I thinking??

This is such a precious time in my life.

Being a student at BYU with my husband.

Being pregnant with our first child.

Being married without kids

where Matt and I actually have time to be together.

Being able to hangout 

with other young married couples

and have a social life.

Yes we do live in an apartment,

but we have the rest of our lives

to live in a home.

This is such a small window of time,

I would hate to waste it by wishing I was 

at a different stage in life.

But don't we all wish for things we don't have?

Such as:

I wish my hair was longer,

or I wish I had a baby,

or I wish my kids were off to college,

or I wish at was better at this or that,

or I wish we lived in a different state,

or I wish my life would slow down.

The list can really go on and on.

It reminded me of the Mormon Messages video

called Moments That Matter Most :)

It really is important for all of us,

not just me,

to appreciate the stage of life we are at RIGHT NOW.

We won't ever get this window in time back.

Ever.

So don't ruin it by wishing you had more time

or more material things.

Enjoy what you have.

Enjoy your journey :)